Seriously had to give him an ultimatum. If you have to give an ultimatum to someone you’re dating, that should be a clear sign that shit will never get better.

Regardless if he chose me. Just the fact that I had to put my foot down makes me feel like someone I’m not. I’m not that kinda girl. I don’t do that. I don’t like the person I’m becoming when I’m around him. Sigh.

Way to fuck up something good. Thanks dude.

Ok so my problem is is that I expect the worse in all situations. I just do. I can’t help it. I rather expect the worst so when the worst happens it won’t sting too bad and I won’t be that disappointed because I expected it.

Downside: it’s emotionally draining.